Last words.

Before that I posted a post about someone yesterday night. I think somebody might think I was saying about but apparently is true that I am talking about you, ifyouarereadingthis. Well, sorry about that if I ever offended you. I know its weird of apologizing you but I know I was kinda rude and harsh for saying things like that. And how did I know IF you ever read that post? Thanks to someone who cared for me told me that you wrote some status stating about me if i'm not mistaken lah. If you ever did, a thousand sorry.


I guess things changed just in a split second. The first second you were thinking like this but the next second you think differently. I was thinking the whole night about why I did it. Cause of you? I guess I was just too hurt seeing things like that. But can I blame you? No. I shouldn't think like that. I guess you'll think that I'm childish and is good that you would felt disappointed for me. Is true that I shouldn't be together with a guy a like you. I admit that I'm a playful person. Always letting you down and disappointed. I'm sorry. You gave me chances but I never cherish it.


Well, me and you have already become past tense. I understand what you and I should do. Is good that you have a good life. I'm happy for you. If you ever find love, I wish you happiness. And me? Gonna take a rest and enjoy life. I guess we are now just friends, or maybe just a familiar stranger.....





Trial exam and SPM is in another few weeks and months. I'm halfway preparing and mostly won't be on the internet that often. I know this kind of word say out from my mouth is hard to believe but hey, I am so gonna do it! Whatever lah if you think I can't do it. haha. Facebook , Twitter , Instagram and other social networks might less update. If I ever have free time I would drop by to say Hi or even Bye LOL



Aite, I guess I shall stop writing Byes :)

Without you I still will live happily.

SEVEN ELEVEN TWENTY TWELVE ♥

Idk why I just love this picture of myself ♥

Hello :) Its July! Time flies so fast and come to think of it I thought it was just January. But in another 4 more months I'm sitting for the SPM examination. Nervous feeling in my tummy and hope I won't get so nervous till I get stomachache LOL. Anyhow, pray that I'll get flying colors by not just online all the time and touch the book more often. 


My recent life was alright. Relationship issues? Single and getting better. The other day I went drinking session with my buddies and they asked me about my break up. I told them how I felt and what to do and they gave me some advice that kinda really work out. I think hardly on why must I torture myself like that? He doesn't wants you so what? It doesn't matter. Life also still have to go on right? I told myself from that day onward I would learn to let go. Maybe not let go all but just a part that you are not my mine for now.

I realize that today is 11.7.2012. It's our anniversary date! If we hadn't break up lah. If i'm not wrong it would be our 4 months anniversary. Hmmm time really past fast. It was just like few months back to January, I said to him after SPM only we get together but maybe we were to hurry or scare that we lose each other and so we just get together on the 11th of March. And throughout those days, we thought we can go longer....just maybe we don't know each other that well so we were kinda stressed and tired? Argued several times, cried several times, getting hurt several times.... And now we are free from those cruel things. Ah, those days. Really happening though. And of course I don't miss those unhappy stuff but REALLY miss those sweet things lah. Till now I still keep our pictures as memories. I don't have the feeling of deleting it because I still love you and miss you. Sometimes I felt like asking you, are you alright with your life now?

I know letting go of someone you love is kinda hard but try to think in another side. Do you really want to let that person see you being like this? Letting them see you acting this way may let them feel that they felt sorry for you and hurt in another kind of way but not love. To me, I might be those kind of reputation is important person. I won't let myself let them pity me, I the one want them to regret for leaving me. Prove to them without them I still can live happily. People says that the best revenge to make is live better and happier than the other person. Let them regret that leaving you is a BIG MISTAKE! This is my way lah. You have many choices to make but depends on will you willing to do it?



Everyday I try to make myself happy and don't think too much. Slowly it works! I won't simply think of those negative things and enjoy most of my life. Last time whenever I see back our conversations or pictures, I burst out tears and wouldn't stopped. Now I have the courage to see back and laugh silly. I really DID enjoy those moments with you. I never ever will forget those days with you. I don't know in the future can we be together but hopefully I wish too :)


Hope that you doing fine and remember our promise ♥ :)

♥

Having le period week. Mostly first day is kinda hurt a lot. Argh suffering!

*suffering week, sigh

But this save my first day ;

ICE CREAMMM :D (ignoremystupidface) 

Well, hopefully i'm doing fine this week. Stay tuned for more updates!

02072012

Holiday for me today. Shall blog about my recent life after my tuition 

later :)

& going for my Pizza lunch nowwwwwwwww! Hehe!

See ya.

School life

My school life.

Now I realize that staying in school isn't that bad. Beginning of the month I thought it would

be really bad but actually is not :) I did cherish my school life now :)

如果有一天你说还爱我，我会告诉你，其实我一直在等你 

♥

Don't give up.

Single & not available at the moment :)

I've understand that what is not your's now maybe can be your's in the future.

If you love that person very much, learn to wait.

I'm learning to live my life alone without relying on a companion. 

I know I would get what I want in the future. Just to let you know, IMISSYOU. 

Which to choose ? :/

Recently really headache don't know which to choose :/ Either a car ? Or Iphone 4s ? :(

I hate to make choices but no choice I poor only can choose one (><)

;;

Viva ? *not confirm is viva but also get a car la xD

Iphone 4s ?

Some friends commented and said car, almost all LOL! Car hard to buy and can go anywhere

easier ;/ Iphone 4s? Just only online, text, entertainment lol... Well, i've decided to choose the car

HAHA Just a random post. Nothing much so tata :))))

WORDS describe my feelings

'People says that when you meet a break up, the best revenge is 

to live happier and better than the other person.' 

But am I happy with what I am right now ? :/

Without You i'm just nothing.

I can smile broadly because of you are mine.

But now can I still smile broadly..? 

I know we can't be together or maybe in the future we not meant

for each other...

But now my feeling towards you is getting stronger....

I can't forget you easily because you gave me a lot of memories...

You taught me a lot of things..

I DO miss you always calling me stupid

I DO miss seeing you coquetry me 

I DO miss you bullying me and so on.....

There is so many I DO miss the things we did

Is not that easy to forget someone you really love, you know?

I easily give up on our relationship is because your feeling towards me has already

decreasing... What can I do? 

No matter what I do surely you will feel annoy or maybe just ignore me...

Why don't I just make the first step, right?

But I made the wrong step... I shouldn't had said it... I really regretted

I really wish I can win your heart back.

After being single, my friends cheered me up :') I really wanna thank them a lot.

But sorry to say that I still can't move on that easily.

Give me time alright? :) 

Don't worry I'm alright, life still needs to go on

I won't give up easily :)

If there is one wish I can make, I wish that I can be your girlfriend again :')

Will my wish ever granted? ♥

Holidayyyyyyy!

Exam is over & 

Holiday is starting ! Weeeeeeeeeee :)

Hope you guys enjoy ♥♥♥♥♥

5202012 ♥

Have you guys realized the date today? " 520 " in chinese its stands for " wo ai ni " means I LOVE YOU. Its a special day that people say " 520 " around, especially couples :) It's not necessary to say " 520 " if you don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend, you can say it to your love one's or family members or friends :)  I haven't receive a " 520 " text nor calls from mine ;/ Ah, wtheck! His not a sweet talker after all x] Maybe he didn't know the exact meaning of " 520 " o_____o. Stupid Yong Kah Kenn ><"

Ishhhhh! Haha, its okay baby, as long as our heart have each other it's already enough :)  ♥


我爱你 杨家健 ♥

Blessing to all couples happiness <3

Realization...

Hello, it's time to update my blog. LOL what a lame starting. Every time when I start to blog, I don't know what to start with it, any ideas? Haha.. Anyway, don't get distracted by my lame starting, teehee!


Ah, is the second week of May. Time does fly fast. My mid year exam is gonna end soon and the second semester holiday is next week...NEXT WEEK! Seriously, it's really just a blink of an eye and poof HOLIDAY is here! But sad to know that this year I can't enjoy that much, need to put some effort in my studies  :( You know? SPM candidate here. So no choice have to do some improvement. Not to worry, suffer more 6 more months! After that FREEDOM!!! Muahahaha! :)))
Gonna try enjoying my 6 more months of high school life  ♥


Other than that, this afternoon I read a news about this 18 years old girl just passed away in an accident at Genting yesterday midnight. To me this girl is not a relative nor friend that I know, but don't know why she attracts me that made me realize that in life we need to learn to appreciate what we have now. She is my friend's friend. I can feel her pain that her friend had just left her not long. To me I surely can't accept anyone that I relate to me leave me. Last few years ago, my grandma too, had left me. Her death was really a big loss to me. That very day where she need to burn into ashes, I can't accept and kneel on the floor to beg her come back. But all I can see that she wouldn't come back anymore.... Slowly, I learn to accept everything has changes.... 




So now we must think differently. We must learn to appreciate anything in our life.
Once they are gone, we only will know how to regret but not appreciate them when they around.






xoxo ♥




To me I've appreciate this few people in my life ;


My family ♥

Friends ♥

And last but not least, my one and only stupid ♥

YONG KAH KENN ♥

Mother's Day ♥

Hey readers! Tonight I have the feeling to update cause tomorrow is MOTHER'S DAY :D
I know some of you are confuse when is mother's day. Some says is today, some says its tomorrow
But who knows? Exact date is tomorrow, 13/5/2012 :) So, don't forget to say I LOVE YOU to your mom and give a BIG KISS AND HUG as well :D


I had a simple MOTHER'S DAY dinner with my family at some 'famous' seafood Restoran @ Taman Mega. Was there quite late and the place was packed, luckily my bro came earlier to get us table.
But unfortunately we got a table but it was reserved -.- To me that Restoran is not so high class yet fancy.
If they said got customer booked, why didn't they wrote a paper with the customer's name on it? 
Ah, whatever, don't intend to get pissed by this random Restoran :)


The food was just okay, service bad literally. No next time for me! Had a quality time with the family. 
Ever since both my elderly siblings got married, it's been a while since we ever sat down and talk about what's going on with our life. I really miss both my bro and sis so much. Sometimes I felt the loneliness every time when I'm at home :( But I know they are always be with me ♥ 


Oh yah! My sis finally changed her IPHONE 3GS to 4! HAHA! Can see that my sister ain't a big spender after all x) She told me she reads my blog. I was like =3= (wtf? are you serious???) HAHA I thought she was like gonna screw me or tease me for my blog >< But in the end she shows me the "LIKE" finger :D
Awww ♥ She liked my blog! Teehee Well, thanks for your support :)


Last time I would sneak around trying to not let my family know that I blog. Cause of privacy ? Don't 
want to let them know about my life ? feelings ? Hahas, but slowly I started to grow up and environment 
changes, slowly I let them into my life. I always refuse to let my family know everything about me.
Because maybe ages difference? Communicating issues? But seriously is really hard to get along with
a sibling that is like 10 years difference o.o But now I can get along with both of my siblings :)
Love,Friendship, Arguments, etc I let them know all. Sometimes its better to let them know than sneaking around. Seriously, you will feel that happy thought :)




Finally in my life now, I know what is important to me, FAMILY ♥
No matter what they will support you and won't give up on you :)
Sometimes when I think back, I felt so useless and rebel during my teenage life.
I now understood in life FAMILY is more important than anything :')




I cherish every moment with my family ♥






Befor ending this post, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM! 

♥♥♥♥♥

Be right back

the wthell face /.\

Exam week, be right back.

Recent week

Helloooooooooo :) Finally willing to update my blog ! Recently was busy with my life and school projects :( 
School life was kinda bored and exam is around the corner. Plus, I realised that we, my school mates aren't like  SPM candidates LOL Every day we just lay around in class, chit chatting and just wait the time past. Felt so lifeless wthack... Hahas, anyway hope I won't fail x] 


To be honest, I can't really remember what I did the past few weeks. I only know I gained weight :(


So, wait for my next post :)

'There are moments in my life that I'll always remember, 

not because they were important, 

but because you were there..,..,,'

First Month Anniversary ♥

I should learn to face not escape,

don't escape whatever problems

I know you would be there with me to face together

I trust you in everything

I cherish every moment with you ♥

Last but not least, I Love You ♥

The past two days....

Its been a hectic week for me, teehee. But seems to get everything in order, phew~
How's ya weekend? My weekend was great and baby dear came to find me the past two days :)
I was glad to see him because we can only see each other twice a week or maybe just once :(
I cherish every day that I could see him ♥


The other day, baby dear had off day so he came over to fetch me home from school. We spend our
time at my place just watching tv and I was sleeping 2~3 hours, hahas. Mom came back and we went to
Victoria Station for dinner :) Mmmm~ its been awhile since I last ate there, teehee ♥ We took mom's car
and drove all the way to Victoria Station @ Subang, Taipan.

My love among all food ; Buns :)))

Black pepper Chicken chop // Mine ♥

Mushroom Chicken chop // Mom's ♥

Fried Filet-O-Fish // Baby Dear's ♥

The food there is just nice for western cuisine lovers. You can go try it out :)

Other than V.S. I also prefer The Ship. Ever heard of that ? Its famous for its steak and seafood :)

Our family usually goes there for any occasions, we enjoy the food as much as V.S. 

But come to think of it, the environment of V.S. beats T.S :\

Hmmm, maybe because one is like dining in a Train and the other is dining in a Ship, HAHA!

Anyhow, go try it, and maybe you would like it ? :))))

Yesterday baby dear came over right after his work :) I'm kinda in a happy mode cause I can see him

two straight days, teehee ♥  Dinner with mom is a usual thing but when my boyfriend is around ? Woops!

Baby dear is okay with it and so is mom, teehee ♥  Mom didn't say anything and was delighted to have

dinner with baby dear. And when the paying bill thing ... ? Erm, lets say sooner or later me and baby dear

will gonna treat her either brunch/lunch/high tea or dinner :x 

After dinner we slacked at home and watched PARANORMAL ACTIVITY o__o  Don't even wanna

talk about it (><)  Baby dear went home around midnight and of course I sleep with my mom xD

Scary movies creeps me out :X

Ah, few more days its gonna be our First Month Anniversary... Baby dear, you really shine my world ♥

Do you know that I Love You ? :)

xoxo ♥

1/1/ Day out with my sister ♥

Its been really a long time I last hang out with my sister. You guys know that I have a sister?  Hahas, she's 13 years older than me :) And Married! We went Mid valley and had high tea @ Delicious.

Macaroons ♥

Lime pie ♥

Our high tea @ Delicious, Mid valley

We can be funny too x)

I just love my sister ♥♥♥

A failure...

Exam is finally over! Hmmm, life is a hectic for me but almost everyday I wasting my time doing rubbish things other than taking out my books to study ;/ Sigh~ My parents are nagging me and complain all the time saying that I didn't study. Anyway, the results are out.
Ha! Fail fail fail :) Who shall I blame? Of course, ME! XD




Come to my surprise, I felt kinda disappointed. Usually I won't care at all but this time, it means war!  SPM is coming nearer and nearer, and now we are just having intervention exam. If i'm not mistaken First Semester SPM would be this coming april or end of april, i'm so damn eff nervous, seriously :(  I don't wanna disappoint my family, especially my mom. She gave me full support by going tuition class ; go for seminars etc... She really had high hopes on me and hope that I'll find a good job in the future. She also did plan IF I can't study or get good grades, she told me to enroll some kind of language course and be a translator instate. I did thought about it. Sigh, this kind of mom where to find. 


Sigh, not to say I over emotion or what, is that I really was shocked that my marks came out to my surprise. I almost fail all of my subject and literally my English passed, 44%, is it good for an English educated background?  I really have the feeling to just drop down and cry. I told my family about it and their expression was like HOW CAN? ARE YOU CRAZY....  
Damn disappointment...  


This few days don't know is my hormone or what, I felt super emotion and don't feel like speaking out. Even my MR K. felt the same feeling that is it I have anything wrong. I just kept silence. Sigh, what to do?  People also tease me for my shortness and I care for what people said about it. DAMN! 


I'm really sick of being this way :(  Is it because of my results ? 








I gave myself a goal. I want to achieve a good result for my family to see. I want to prove
to them I'm not that useless.  I hope I really can do it ;/ I won't give up!




Mr K. <3
Sometimes I know i'm really stupid and always made you mad. I hope you understand that my mind is not that fast to understand and not mature. You tolerate most of my temper and just kept quiet. I hope our relationship can grow longer and far. I just hope that nothing will change <3






Blog ? Facebook ?  Don't want to waste so much time on it anymore.
Seriously, Facebook ruined my life, sigh...

17&18/3/12 Trip to Awanmulan, Seremban

Phew! So many photos to upload but I did manage to upload all up :)

Say thanks to SuzieTeh! Haha, just joking. Anyway, I promised you guys before that I 

would update my 2d1n trip to Seremban. & I did update about it. So here we go.....

17.3.2012 Day1

Woke up early at around 8+ to get ready and put our belongings in the car. Head over

to dear's place to pick him up too ^^ Get to see the person you love in the morning 

its so AWESOME! <3  We had our light breakfast @ Puchong Dim Sum. After-all, we're

on our way to Awanmulan, Seremban!

Distance to Seremban is around 1~1 1/2 hour drive. Wouldn't be long and tiring.

Met up with my ah sou's friends and off we go to Awanmulan :)

The place is located up on the mountain and its kinda cooling. We reached around

10am and we rested ourselves and take a look around.

Pictures timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! 

The entrance

Walking down to our chalet 

Our bedroom

The shower 

p/s the bathroom is open air :)

Living Room

Chilling place

Kitchen

The cooling pool <3

Barbecue area

Went and walked around with dear and we chilled at the pool area. Such a hot

weather @@ Dear and I took quite some pictures. 

Me :)))))

How pale is my face is @@

Due to the HOT weather, we went inside and helped out to get ready for night 

barbecue!

Saw the only guy in the picture? That is my ah sou's secondary mate. 

His name is KEN LIM XD So familiar? Yeah, same name as my dear. His kinda a funny guy and friendly! Really Friendly!

Making Saladddd

Swimming timeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Since don't know how long I've not been in the pool, this is my very first time swimming in it. So refreshing and cooling, teehee. Kena photo captured by my dear <3

But I only upload one cause due to OTHERS are kinda pale o.o So no pictures xD

After a long day of refreshing swim, the guys are readying for barbecue. The guy in the white shirt is my brother. 

Sausages :))))

* Thanks dear for taking out the well-burn parts <3

Me & dear spend our night watching dvd from bro's laptop. 

Who we are? K & S <3 

18.3.2012 Day2

The next morning we woke up early to go hiking in the forest. It was fun and adventurous!

I think I burn some weight, HAHA!  

Pancake <3

Delightful breakfast

Hiking in the woods

HAHA this is epic xD

What's with the peace (Y) 

I enjoyed my trip so much, especially my dear came along. He took really good care 
of me during the trip.
Thanks baby dear <3  




Gotta get ready & we are having KOREAN BBQ :)
Thanks to my brotherrrr <3