A failure...

Exam is finally over! Hmmm, life is a hectic for me but almost everyday I wasting my time doing rubbish things other than taking out my books to study ;/ Sigh~ My parents are nagging me and complain all the time saying that I didn't study. Anyway, the results are out.
Ha! Fail fail fail :) Who shall I blame? Of course, ME! XD




Come to my surprise, I felt kinda disappointed. Usually I won't care at all but this time, it means war!  SPM is coming nearer and nearer, and now we are just having intervention exam. If i'm not mistaken First Semester SPM would be this coming april or end of april, i'm so damn eff nervous, seriously :(  I don't wanna disappoint my family, especially my mom. She gave me full support by going tuition class ; go for seminars etc... She really had high hopes on me and hope that I'll find a good job in the future. She also did plan IF I can't study or get good grades, she told me to enroll some kind of language course and be a translator instate. I did thought about it. Sigh, this kind of mom where to find. 


Sigh, not to say I over emotion or what, is that I really was shocked that my marks came out to my surprise. I almost fail all of my subject and literally my English passed, 44%, is it good for an English educated background?  I really have the feeling to just drop down and cry. I told my family about it and their expression was like HOW CAN? ARE YOU CRAZY....  
Damn disappointment...  


This few days don't know is my hormone or what, I felt super emotion and don't feel like speaking out. Even my MR K. felt the same feeling that is it I have anything wrong. I just kept silence. Sigh, what to do?  People also tease me for my shortness and I care for what people said about it. DAMN! 


I'm really sick of being this way :(  Is it because of my results ? 








I gave myself a goal. I want to achieve a good result for my family to see. I want to prove
to them I'm not that useless.  I hope I really can do it ;/ I won't give up!




Mr K. <3
Sometimes I know i'm really stupid and always made you mad. I hope you understand that my mind is not that fast to understand and not mature. You tolerate most of my temper and just kept quiet. I hope our relationship can grow longer and far. I just hope that nothing will change <3






Blog ? Facebook ?  Don't want to waste so much time on it anymore.
Seriously, Facebook ruined my life, sigh...