Idk why I just love this picture of myself ♥
Hello :) Its July! Time flies so fast and come to think of it I thought it was just January. But in another 4 more months I'm sitting for the SPM examination. Nervous feeling in my tummy and hope I won't get so nervous till I get stomachache LOL. Anyhow, pray that I'll get flying colors by not just online all the time and touch the book more often.
My recent life was alright. Relationship issues?
Single and getting better. The other day I went drinking session with my buddies and they asked me about my break up. I told them how I felt and what to do and they gave me some advice that kinda really work out. I think hardly on why must I torture myself like that? He doesn't wants you so what? It doesn't matter. Life also still have to go on right? I told myself from that day onward I would learn to let go. Maybe not let go all but just a part that you are not my mine for now.
I realize that today is
11.7.2012. It's our anniversary date! If we hadn't break up lah. If i'm not wrong it would be our 4 months anniversary. Hmmm time really past fast. It was just like few months back to January, I said to him after SPM only we get together but maybe we were to hurry or scare that we lose each other and so we just get together on the 11th of March. And throughout those days, we thought we can go longer....just maybe we don't know each other that well so we were kinda stressed and tired? Argued several times, cried several times, getting hurt several times.... And now we are free from those cruel things. Ah, those days. Really happening though. And of course I don't miss those unhappy stuff but
REALLY miss those sweet things lah. Till now I still keep our pictures as memories. I don't have the feeling of deleting it because I still love you and miss you. Sometimes I felt like asking you, are you alright with your life now?
I know letting go of someone you love is kinda hard but try to think in another side. Do you really want to let that person see you being like this? Letting them see you acting this way may let them feel that they felt sorry for you and hurt in another kind of way but not love. To me, I might be those kind of reputation is important person. I won't let myself let them pity me, I the one want them to regret for leaving me. Prove to them without them I still can live happily. People says that the best revenge to make is live better and happier than the other person. Let them regret that leaving you is a
BIG MISTAKE! This is my way lah. You have many choices to make but depends on will you willing to do it?
Everyday I try to make myself happy and don't think too much. Slowly it works! I won't simply think of those negative things and enjoy most of my life. Last time whenever I see back our conversations or pictures, I burst out tears and wouldn't stopped. Now I have the courage to see back and laugh silly. I really
DID enjoy those moments with you. I never ever will forget those days with you. I don't know in the future can we be together but hopefully I wish too :)
Hope that you doing fine and remember our promise
♥ :)
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Having le period week. Mostly first day is kinda hurt a lot. Argh suffering!
*suffering week, sigh
But this save my first day ;
ICE CREAMMM :D (ignoremystupidface)
Well, hopefully i'm doing fine this week. Stay tuned for more updates!
